Today went fast…
After class and in class posting this morning, I wrote my Columbia writing test. Remember how I said I was going to read the “Top Stories of 2011” stuff at the turn of the year last year to prep? I didn’t, but I should have. Listing stories came up on it — oh boy. I struggled but I finished the test so that’s all dandy. I realized I REALLY don’t know how I feel about going to Columbia OR about going to journalism school. Yeah, I’m admitting it more and more — I am CONFUSED.
I was that girl for two reasons today in class – I ate a stinky tuna sandwich and crunchy carrots! Oh well.
After the test, I decided to make it a rest day. I met with Meg for a chit chat and some Starbucks/Remark fun. She has a knack for making me smile!
After Remark, I picked up a cartful of healthy foods. I’m trying to set myself up for success (stay tuned for a “February Goals” post this weekend) and I know I need to bring in replacements if I want to take out some of the foods I’m going to try to get away from (convenience foods and things I feel vulnerable around).
Meg inspired me to give the Ezekiel cereal another go! I trust her. 🙂
Even with that kind of resolve, coming home, I started to pick and even to binge on things (even though I’d had TWO snacks after lunch?). I put a stop to it and made the dinner I was planning – a pita pizza with cheese, chicken, mushrooms, onions and spinach (so good!) and salad.
After dinner I had a hot chocolate and I’m just realizing I think I want my pajamas and bed right now. There’s no shame in that. I might relax with a magazine or a book.
I had to pry myself out of the kitchen and just put the stuff I was picking at in a bowl. I dug into the ice cream in my freezer – I think the idea of controlling my environment makes me worry I’m going to restrict so I was attempting to do the “last supper” eating that I realized a few spoons in isn’t necessary (I can have ice cream whenever I want it).
Trying to stay positive and to look on the bright side still! There’s lots for me to look forward to this weekend and next week, so I should be happy. Stay tuned – I promise to bring some happy!
What are you looking forward to this weekend?