All I can think of after I wrote that title was this song, obviously:
I love studying, I love studying, I love studying. Fake it til you make it or something like that!
For me chocolate and studying go hand in hand. So many times today I found myself eating little handfuls of chocolate chips or candy and so many times I reminded myself it’s not about the food.
I studied all afternoon with a break to go to Shoppers…I also ran into two friends so had a good chit chat with both of them (thanks for the sole social interaction of my day!). There was a snack in there, and tons of chocolate around it. But that’s where the title comes from, I am being gentle with myself about it! It could be so much worse…
Yes, I’m struggling. To study, to feel good, to realize that I can finish my Christmas shopping Thursday, to not binge and make myself focus on that instead, to not beat myself up for what I’ve eaten today, to not worry about when I’m going to run, spin, work out, etc. with my schedule come January. Petty, petty. My focus should be on this exam and on getting through it strong, and it is (but it’s taking a lot to get me there). But I am realizing that I can use this whole discomfort thing in a positive way (not to make myself feel bad, but to notice how I feel when I treat myself poorly (i.e. leave studying til the last minute, eat foods that don’t fuel me properly, fall back into old habits) to figure out the things that I DO want for myself.
Looking back at my eats today, no wonder I felt blah. So much processed and so much non hunger eating.
Not that exams are an excuse but I’m forcing myself to stress over studying and not over this because I know I can move towards healthier eating soon:
- Whole foods with ingredient lists that make sense to me/less from a box and more from the ground/nature 🙂 simple and nutritious
- Batch cooking so I don’t rely on canned chili, frozen lasagna, etc (this should be the exception, not the norm)
- Again, treats as treats
- Majority of my beverages being water, not decaf coffee
- Eating before I get starving
- Eating more fruits and vegetables
- Taking it easy with the salt shaker
- Switching from Splenda to more natural forms of adding sweetness–honey, maple sugar, demera sugar, etc.
- Slowing down and eating mindfully (sometimes I forget to chew, no lie)
Now, if you’ll excuse me it’s time for me to learn everything there is to know about complimentary and alternative medicine…18 hours til my exam!