I am ___________.

It’s a little bit of a miracle: I managed to get a good sleep last night! I was up at 6, but I fell back asleep for an extra hour!

I made overnight oats last night, but I didn’t love them and I was in the mood for something crunchy, so the oats weren’t cutting it for me.

Kashi GoLean Crunch!, All Bran Buds, dried cranberries, and peanut butter!

I turned on my TV and Joel Osteen came on. I don’t think it was by chance. Here’s the description of today’s show:

#520, #520 – The Power of I AM
Proverbs 16:9 says “Life and death are in the power of the tongue.” God created our words to have creative power. What follows the two simple words, “I Am”, will determine what type of life you have and will either bring success or failure in your life.

Instead of saying negative “I Ams”, – “I am unfocused. I am never going to succeed”, say what God says you are. Declare “I am blessed, confident, loved, accepted.” When you change your “I Ams,” your life will change for the better. The seeds of greatness God’s placed on the inside will spring forth.

Timely, much?
While I’m not entirely sure how it fits into my recovery, I know spirituality can often be a missing link for people trying to get better. What I think it would do for me is give me a reason to be better without requiring that there be anything wrong, if that makes any sense. I think a large part of holding onto my eating disorder is about the fear of getting lazy/staying the same/etc. if I don’t have a reason to “get better”. It sounds silly when you say it like that, but I’m not sure how else to put it.
Regardless of whether you’re struggling with an eating disorder, body image issues, feeling old–whatever–I think it’s a good message to focus on what you WANT to be. The message reminded me of the power of attraction, which is a little hokey but makes sense!
Goal: Focus on the positive. When I hear, “I’m fat” or whatever, I can replace it with “I am strong” and ideas about what I want to be. I can see that healthy girl, blogging about recipes, things that make me happy, and going out and living my life! That can happen…if I let it!

3 responses to “I am ___________.

  1. What a wonderful message! I totally agree that changing the negatives to positives may seem difficult and “fake” at first, but soon you’ll start to truly believe them. That is what happened with all those negatives in the first place, afterall!

  2. I think having some sort of spirituality in your life throughout recovery (and just throughout your life in general) is SO important 🙂 I went to church this morning and it was wonderful 😀

  3. I can’t really explain very well how spirituality helps me, but I just know that when I read the bible, pray, or go to church…I’m at peace and silly ED thoughts don’t matter so much. But I’m just getting back into going to church (I never went in college), so yeah….it’s still fuzzy to me.

    But I totally agree – sometimes you have to “fake it till you make it!” If you keep telling yourself something/forcing yourself to think something long enough, then eventually it’ll become truth to you!

    Love the breakfast btw. I’m all about breakfast crunchiness 😀

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