I’m not sure if I heard someone say “busy is better than bored” or just thought it one day last month, but it’s definitely been my mantra lately! Today was a long (but good!) day.
This morning I tried to get my apartment organized a little bit more and I wrote up an article for the C Rec website about exercising outdoors (timely, with the smog advisories this week). It should be up soon and I will post the link ASAP!
Next I had an appointment at the dietitian. I’ve just started seeing a new one and I’m starting to feel comfortable. I think that’s really important–if you can’t be honest with someone who is there to help you, it’s not worth going! I really have been trying to stay conscious of my eating lately. Since I’m kind of in the in-between in so many ways, I know to be extra careful. Things I’m looking out for are thoughts like “it’s okay if I skip lunch, I had a big snack” or “now that I’ve had 5 M&Ms, I might as well have the whole bag”. For me, I have to watch both ways: Ed (this is how I refer to my eating disorder, whatever it is, but making it ‘someone’ else makes me realize that listening to it is a choice and not a requirement) will try to convince me that whatever I’m doing is going to make me too fat, too skinny, too whatever (aka miserable). My job is to stay strong and remember that food is just food, if I overeat or undereat one day it’s not the end of the world, and to stay honest about how I’m doing! I’ve learned the hard way that pretending that everything is okay just makes things worse in the long run. I also find it helpful when I’m feeling old habits trying to creep in to go back to the books and websites that really helped me along the way (I think I need to dedicate a whole blog post to this, but Jenni Schaefer’s books, Sunny Sea Gold’s blog and book, and sites with inspirational quotes really help me. That being said, so does focusing on what’s really bothering me and doing whatever I can to help alleviate the worries (you can’t solve everything, but doing something about the things that I can control usually helps me feel in control enough of my life in general that I don’t revert to my tendencies to control my food and exercise instead).
…back to today! After the dietitian, I headed to Sarnia, ran some errands, and grabbed a quick lunch at Loblaw’s. I know it’s not smart to shop while I’m hungry so I figured I should be safe rather than sorry!
Would more questions mean more comments?
Anyone else have any tips on how to stay on track with recovery when things get tough?
Do you ever feel like you’re going to miss out if you don’t do everything? Anyone think I’m trying to do everything? Anyone wanna try and stop me?